Saturday, December 25, 2010

Days 24-27: Time at Home

Day 24:
I spent my first night back in Farmington visiting my old school and some of my old houses.  Ultimately, Josh got done with some of his family obligations, and we went to the bar.  After finishing a couple of beers, we decided to watch some Scott Pilgrim back at my dad's place.  Unfortunately, booze makes me sleepy, so I didn't make it through the entire flick.  I'm just glad I didn't wake up with a markered penis on my face.

Day 25:
When I arrived in Iron Mountain my Grandpa wasn't home, so I took a long walk to my place of Zen.  Sometimes communing with nature has a unique way of putting me at ease.  Once I got back, I spent all day with Grandpa including helping him load up his trailer with firewood and filling up his furnace.  We also lit a big bonfire.  Mwahahaha!

Day 26:
Samantha read my fortune for the year.  Start at one o'clock and work your way around.  It looks like a promising 2011, after all!

Day 27:
This is my sister hiding from the camera.  We pretty much played Mario all day and goofed on the computer some.  Exciting stuff.  :)

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Days 20-23: Short and Sweet

My winter holiday has started, and I'm planning on taking a little break from blogging.  However, I had a goal of posting one picture for evey day this year, so I will continue to post pics as time permits.

Day 20:

I took my sister's advice and came home for strawberry cheesecake.  It was dericious!  I also played a lot of cards with my step-mom and grandparents.  Grandma schooled pretty much every game except one.  The last game, was a landslide victory at rummy.  I swear she gets two jokers every hand.

Day 21:

This year, I actually took the time to make my presents aesthetically pleasing.  They're still missing bows, but I know my dad always has a stash.  I also cleaned my room and did some other random chores on this day.

Day 22:

Sarah took me out to a Blues game completely at random.  We lost, but I really enjoy watching all the action!  Hot dogs (NOM NOM NOM), beer, hockey....what's not to like?  Sarah was a lot of fun to hang out with.  I can't think of a better person for my roommate to date.

Day 23:

We hosted game night on Tuesday night.  Jason needed to get an oil change for his holiday travel, so I ended up doing a lot of the cooking.  The picture above features one of the dishes that I made.  I was worried that my kitchen incompetence would be at work here, but everyone seemed to really enjoy the food.  We followed up with the Family Guy Star Wars movies and a game of Acquire.  Acquire is Monopoly-esque, and I found it to be pretty fun.  I took a very close second place at the end of the game.

General update:
My dating situation continues to improve.  Jenny and I have been talking every night, and the more we do, the more I like her.  We re-scheduled her visit to St. Louis, and I may even visit her in Springfield if we're lucky.  It depends on whether I can secure some sleeping arrangements.  I also really want to see Zack and Sam while I'm there.  I guess we'll have to wait and see what happens.  :)

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Days 19 & 20 - Now what?

At the end of the work week, I look back and appreciate the opportunities I've had over the past couple of weeks.  I got to hang out with pretty girls, go to a Cake concert, get into the holiday spirit, and enjoy the fact that Asher is finally home. It's been a good few weeks!


Thursday was spent working, playing video games, and listening to Cake.  There are sooooo many songs that I don't know by heart, but I must learn them all.  Todays pic is actually a 105.7 pic from the concert.  I just wanted to share a good one of the concert.  Otherwise, you'd just get a pic of me at my computer with my headphones.  =/


Friday, this year's Christmas presents started rolling in!  I'm so excited about the hot wheels set I'm getting my nephew.  I remember when my brother and I used to build insane tracks out of a bunch of random kits that weren't even designed to go together.  I hope he likes it.  I spent a good chunk of Friday chatting Jenny up.  I still have hope that things will work themselves out.  I have pretty much given up hope on Mandy, though.  She seems to be avoiding me, which I have learned to be girl code for, "don't waste your time."  Maybe that's an inaccurate assessment, but that's how I interpret it.

My sister wins the sagely advice award this week with, "You're a man. A fault in intelligence is to be expected. Come home and eat away your sorrows in strawberry cheesecake. Mom made some earlier."  I need to find something really cool for my sister this year.  She is awesome.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Day 18 - Have your Cake and eat it too!


This picture amuses me because it captures almost every element of the concert (except the band).  Note the Mary Jane fog, the lights that didn't even raise for intermission, and the halo bar over my right shoulder.  Someone almost walked right in front of this picture, so I started to make a really funny face.  I almost wish the camera would have waited another second before going off.

Seeing Cake has been one of my childhood dreams, and I have an overwhelming sense of satisfaction from crossing that off of my bucket list.  Doing things like this makes me feel more goal-oriented.  I think my next big undertaking will be the space shuttle launch in April.  If I can get tickets and a good place to view it from, I should be happy.

Also, be sure to check out Cake's new album that is shipping out January 11, 2011.  It's going to rock.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Days 16 & 17 - Girl Troubles


It's pretty bad to find out that someone is not as into you as you are into them, but it's worse to get the "we should be friends" speech from someone you really like...or is it the other way around?  In any case, I got both of those talks. =/  Jenny's was handled very adult-like, and we're still cool even though I am disappointed in her decision.  She evaluates things the way that I used to, by assessing which path has the most obstacles and choosing the other.  I, on the other hand, have started to look at the potential in a relationship and choose that which has the most promise.

Mandy's words and actions are often inconsistent, but now I know where she stands and to some extent what she expects.  I think our conversation probably hurt our relationship some, but I'm hoping that things will go back to normal after a while.  I really need to develop patience in relationships, especially when the other party had a nasty breakup from a serious relationship.  I guess we'll see what happens.


I moped a bit the next day, but I rebounded surprisingly well.  That evening, my roommate and I went to a mutual friend's house for games and movies.  I got skunked every game, but I still managed to have some fun.

From these events I've realized a couple of things.  First, I haven't really dated in seven months or so (a good chunk of my illness).  All of that desire for companionship is rising to the surface, and it's hard to relax those feelings.  I need to give people a little more space and try to trust a bit more.  Maybe then I'll find an environment more conducive to landing a long term lady friend.  Lastly, I'm going to make a lot of mistakes until I get some more dates under my belt.  I need to get better at forgiving myself and moving on.  I hope that some of these girls will be patient with me as I grow in that department.

Wednesday....CAKE CONCERT!  Look for a badass update.  :)

Monday, December 13, 2010

Days 14 & 15 - The End of the Race



Saturday and Sunday were rather hectic with dates, visitors,etc.  Saturday, I was supposed to tour Ranken, but after a night of almost zero sleep I completely forgot about my appointment.  =/  I'm going to try to re-schedule for some time Thursday, I think.  Saturday, Shaun stopped by.  We played some fierce Rockband 3.  As it turns out, Shaun is pretty badass with a keytaur.  Even on pro-keys he did a good job. 

Later that evening, Mandy invited us out to a bar with some of her friends.  We played a few rounds of nine-hole (taught to me by my friend Kelley) and designed super hero costumes before setting out.  The bar turned out to have live entertainment (super loud) and a general lack of billiards or arcade games.  The only productive thing I really got out of the experience was negotiating a few days off for Mandy around New Year's Eve.  I'm unsure how this will impact my Goat House party plans as of yet...  The evening ended with everyone crashing at my place after driving home through a giant snowstorm.  Fun stuff.


Sunday was a lot calmer.  Shaun and I chilled at the house in the morning.  Mandy left early for work.  At this point, my eye infection had grown a little more irritating, so I started looking into optometrist availability.  (There is none on Sunday...)  Ultimately, I called in a favor with my friend Drew's dad and got an appointment for the first thing Monday.  This ultimately cancelled my work travel for the week.  Surprisingly enough, there were a number of positive outcomes from this.  First, I'll get to hang out with Mandy Monday night and watch Inception on blu-ray.  Second, I can actually use my Cake concert ticket for Wednesday!

On Sunday evening Jay, Steve, and Alex (Steve's wife) all grabbed some sushi with me.  Steve is not typically a raw fish eater, but he's coming around.  I stopped by Mandy's house on the way home with the sole intention of giving her a proper goodnight kiss.  I think it worked out rather well.  It wasn't long after that Jenny cancelled our plans to hang out next weekend, for which I am simultaneously relieved and disappointed.  Cancelling long-standing plans is one of my SUPER pet peeves, so she loses out big time.  I think this has probably concluded the competition for my affection.  Mandy is a great girl, and I'm looking forward to exploring the potential of our relationship.

Note: The second picture was taken at the door of a shop adjacent to the sushi restaurant.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Day 13 - Movie Night


Friday was date night with Mandy, and I hoped that it would help me gauge our social compatability a little better.  It was scheduled to be a quiet movie night, and everything pretty much went according to plan...for once.  We brewed up some tea and watched The Count of Monte Cristo, a bunch of episodes of The IT Crowd, and a few episodes of The Guild.

One of the exciting moments in dating someone is deciding when to go for physical contact.  Nothing racey, just a simple holding of hands, back rub, etc.  Up until now, it felt like Mandy and I had this invisible force field between us, but that finally came down.  I'm not really an expert on giving/receiving signals for this kind of stuff, so each time it happens, I'm pleasantly surprised.  I think that Mandy has potential as a girlfriend, but I'm just going to have to be patient and enjoy getting to know her before I have a definite answer.  This is probably a healthy attitude to have for any girl I end up dating.  In any case, I welcome the opportunity for growth in this area.

I pretty much forgot to take a picture today, but there was one on my phone.  Above is a pic of my cable...  I especially like the sub-titles.  Thanks Charter!

Friday, December 10, 2010

Day 12 - Homeward Bound


This week has been tough, and looking back, I'm pretty sure that lack of sleep was the main factor.  At long last, I have finally gotten back on my schedule!  I'm a creature of strict habits with regard to my sleep and diet.  =/

I thought for sure that I'd miss my flight this week and get stuck in Denver.  We were already delayed for the first leg of the trip by an hour, which had me FREAKING OUT.  That's what we get for taking the very last flight home...  Luckily, my friend Jason helped me through the A-List security line so that I would make it through in time.  I literally walked off of my first plane, across a hallway, and onto my second plane.  Talk about luck!

When I got home, I went to Mandy's house and met her mom.  Mandy and I just kinda talked and watched How to Train Your Dragon until about 3 am.  I don't know whether we were both tired or what, but I wasn't feeling the conversation.  We'll have a chance to redeem ourselves when she comes over today.

An observation about my social development....  I seem to have grown comfortable with the "get to know you" phase of relationships, but I'm not a great conversationalist for what comes after that.  I'm not really sure why, either.  It just doesn't come naturally to me.  I think that only practice can really help with that, so I'll try to make every topic count tonight.

The pic is from Buffalo Bill's Brew House in California.  It is a brewery, bar, and restaurant.  They have a fantastic red ale, and the nachos and BLT are substantial.  (Nachos pictured above...)

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Day 11 - Thank God for Skype


I'd like to give a big shout out to Skype.  They make conversations with amazing ladies possible...and even boneheads like my buddy Asher.  I might be a little intoxicated at the moment, but I had a wonderful evening.  I spent a good chunk of it with my friends Toni Donovan and her fiancee. 

At work, we discovered that my friend Jason has never had mango before.  He mentioned it in one of our interviews, and the client jumped up and grabbed us a fruit tray or four off of the line!  Karthik was so hungry that he tried to eat the packaging and everything.  It was great!

Day X - Sleep Deprevation


I have been a Zed, the undead, a zombie for the past day or so.  I've learned that lack of sleep can completely destroy my sense of judgement and turn me into a complete control freak, which I do not particularly enjoy.  Luckily, I grade myself on a day-by-day basis, so tomorrow (Wednesday) will be a new day!

The pic was taken at a tavern where I had a "shitty day drink".  It helped put me in a better mood, and kept me from eating anyone's brain.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Day 9 - Return to California


The weather in California is infinitely superior to that of Missouri.  I love love love my sunny 60s.  The leaves are really beautiful, like fall is clinging on for as long as it can.  I spent a lot of time today processing the events of this weekend, and I've decided that I truly have no regrets.  I'm going to do my best not to over-think this and just have fun.  Things will develop on their own, or they won't.  I don't really think I can/should force an outcome here. 

Sorry this post isn't very exciting.  Flight delays in the Denver airport will do that.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Days 7&8 - A New Challenger Approaches


Days 7 and 8 are being combined because the shenanigans happened overnight, bleeding into day 8.  Day 7 was Saturday.  I had plans to meet my cousin Joe at the Tilted Kilt in St. Louis, but they fell through.  A friend of the family was murdered in my hometown, and Joe went back for the funeral.  That left me scratching my head as to what I should do.  It should be noted that at this juncture, I was still recovering from the blow of Mandy dating some other bloke.

The facebook vote suggested I go to a party in Rolla where beer pong would happen.  In total agreement, I packed an overnight bag and met up with my friends Kelley and Jenny.  We played some fierce beer pong.  I was the clutch man, taking two games into overtime when we would have lost otherwise.  We also played a lot of fun drinking card games.


Now, the next part requires you to know a little history.  I had a crush on Jenny for a looooong time back in college, but she was perpetually unavailable, as most girls are in Rolla.  I pretty much gave up hope of catching her interest, and we went our separate ways.

Next thing you know, Jenny pulls me into the bathroom, and we do some quality kissing...the kind you still feel once they're over.  I would later be propositioned by a ditsy blonde that I shot down.  I'm not a ho.  The rest of the night was relatively uneventful.

The next day, I returned home to learn that Mandy called it off with her ex, so now he's an ex for good.  I'm left with the choice of which I want to pursue.  Maybe dating will actually be useful for once and help me make an informed decision.  I typically hate dating, but it seems to be the most reasonable solution here.  I guess we'll see how it goes.  Adios for now!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Bonus Post: My Landlord's Name is Hitchcock!


I offer this bonus post as atonement for being really late on a couple of posts this week.  I shot this from my apartment while my friend Mandy was over.  Enjoy!

Days 5&6 - Back to the Basics

Day 5:

SJC Taken Over by War of the Worlds Aliens

Sorry I missed Thursday!  I travelled/worked most of the day, and I didn't get home until 1:00 AM Friday.  Bleh.  Looking back, this week has been stressful for two reasons.  First, I didn't know how this whole Mandy situation would work out.  I really like her, which is a vulnerability I'd rather not nurture without some assurance that it is reciprocated.  In any case, the second reason I've been stressed this week is because the first phase of my project is coming to an end.  All of the hard work we've done over the past few weeks is being compiled into a report (eight pages of bullet points on just my stuff) for the group to review next week.

I've learned that attitude can play a huge role in my workplace happiness.  This week, my goal has been to start every day in a positive frame of mind, and although it wasn't perfect, I did a pretty good job. My work was monotonous but not unbearable as it has been the past few weeks.  I even enjoyed a few meetings and felt like my relationships with my teammates was improving.  Overall, I would say that this strategy has proven very effective.

Day 6:


Spending Time with Mandy

As I said, I've been thinking a lot about whether I should invest in this potential Mandy relationship.  I thought I had been pretty clear about expressing my interest, but I hoped to cement that sometime after we went Christmas shopping tonight.  The mall trip was not very exciting, but then one of her friends invited both of us to a bar.  We set out, and I found out on the way that she just started seeing one of her exes.  I was too late...  However, I've decided that she is worth the fight, so I'm going to stick with it.

We went to the bar, had a great time drinking and playing pool, and I told her to dump the guy she is with for me.  She said that if it doesn't work out, I'll get my shot.  Based on our awesome chemistry, I really hope that it's soon.  She makes me feel all warm and mushy sometimes, and I like that.  Honestly, I am a little ill equipped to deal with these types of emotions.  It has been a long time since I genuinely liked someone enough to fight for them.  This may be a first, actually.  In any case, I'm trying to keep my enthusiasm down and prepare for the worst, but it's probably an effort in futility.  I have a serious crush going.

Sometimes it's hard for me to convince myself that I deserve someone great...  Well, I do.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Day 4 - Visiting Toni


There seems to be a trend where all of my friends are getting married, sometimes even to each other.  While I am a little jealous that they've found their special someone, I've also noticed an alarming trend of people distancing themselves from the rest of the world.  It almost seems like marriage comes at the cost of being able to form new relationships.  In any case, I think that Toni and Bryan will defy the odds and be very happy together.  They deserve it.  Best of luck to both of you!

Dating again has reminded me that I lack some basic skills, so I'm going to take some classes and pursue some of my interests a little further.  I have emailed a dance studio and guitar school to see if they offer any weekend lessons that I might be able to get in on.  If those fail, I'm going to start looking at cooking classes.  Although cooking would probably be the most beneficial skill set to me, I'd much rather do something less productive.

On a complete side note, I often wonder what my ex-girlfriend V is doing these days.  I really liked her but didn't know how to make long distance relationships work at the time.  *sigh*  I hope that she's doing well, wherever she is.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Day 3 - Family Dinner

Today was a grueling day at work.  We had non-stop meetings with people that droned on forever about all the paperwork they have to fill out for their jobs, what problems they experience with their current tools, etc.  I did, however get to talk to some QA folks that had interesting stories about the quality of the food they purchase.  For legal reasons, I can't repeat them here, but I can say that I'll never look at salad kits the same way.

We finished up the day with a big dinner at a quality Italian restaurant.  The Cajun Chicken Fettucini was outstanding!  A member of our client's team, joined us and brought his baby son, John Franklin.  Needless to say, John Franklin stole the show.  Well, I'm running late for work.  More to come later, perhaps.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Day 2 - Back to Work Special


Although it was a heavy travel and work day, I still managed to go out and have some fun!  I got to meet my co-worker K-Man's wife, and our team went out to some brewhouse.  Most of us had burgers for dinner and tried a variety of beers.  I always look for the one with the coolest tap and give it a whirl.  This time, it was a killer whale tap, and the beer was Alaskan White Winter Ale.  It was pretty tastey as far as white ales go.  My buddy J-Mac ordered a jalapeno burger that he couldn't handle, so he whimped out and ordered milk to wash it down.  They brought him the most insulting grade-school cartons of milk for his meal.  It was perfect!

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Day 1 - Packing

I have decided to start doing a photograph journal of sorts.  I will post one picture every day that describes in some way at least one aspect of what I'm up to.  You may also see some of my posts tagged 'doc' disappear off of my blog.  Many of those posts were for my benefit more than my readers', and they don't serve much purpose now.  At any rate, I give you day 1:


I am coming off of what seems like a long vacation.  I've had three short work weeks in a row, and it's hard for me to get back into work mode.  *Procrastinate procrastinate procrastinate* 

Anywhoo, I went on a date yesterday that was a total shock to the system, and it got me thinking.  I feel as though my little health crisis has completely distracted me from what is important in my life, and I'm just starting to get my bearings again.  If I am to become the best version of myself, I need to carry a positive attitude into work tomorrow.

I'm going to work hard this week and feel good about what I accomplished when I get home.  That's what I'm shooting for, anyway.  :)

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Full Recovery

At long last, I have reached the end of my medical crisis.  The last of my test results came back negative, and my doctor says I should be 100% very soon (next few months).  I look back on this year plus of trials and tribulations and think...  man, I'm going to have to party hard to make up for time lost.  To be honest, this experience has taught me a few things...

You'll never understand how deep your friendships run until you need to lean on them.  I would not have made it to my 26th birthday without the companionship of my goat house friends, my family, and and some former roommates.  I value our relationships above all else.

Your body needs two things (not an exhaustive list): water and fiber.  Make sure you have enough of both, or you'll regret it.

I retracted the third lesson.  It's gross-ish.  =D

Lastly, I'd like to offer a big and sincere thank you to everyone who supported me and, more to the point,  listened to me bitch about everything for the past year.  It was tough, but we made it!

Saturday, May 22, 2010

I don't cook my fish in oil...

(Image borrowed from the WSJ)

BP has basically created one of the worst ecological disasters of my lifetime.  If the spill spreads outside of the Loop Current (which it has already entered), there's a chance it will destroy a goodly portion of the Atlantic ecosystem.  Those are just the facts as best I understand them.

I tried to research an expected recovery time for affected areas, but I didn't find estimates that anyone seemed confident in.  Based on previous oil spills, the best anyone can offer is "decades".  Decades?!  I can't help but wonder what the lesson is that we all will take away from this experience. 

Also, how long does it take to plug a fucking oil leak?  It's been over a month, just seal the damn thing?  This situation has been handled poorly by our government.  BP should be held accountable for the incident, but they should not be entrusted with the sole responsibility of resolving the issue.  The governments of the American continents need to step in.  This spill has become everyone's burden, and we need to do whatever it takes to fix it.

I'm not sure which government officials I need to write over this affair, so any suggestions you can offer would be greatly appreciated. 

Thursday, May 13, 2010

A New Spin on Christianity

I’ve been reading a lot of FB posts on faith vs. science, and it inspired me to take a look at Christianity with fresh eyes. Today, I started reading Eckhart Tolle’s A New Earth. The book is about achieving enlightenment or, if you prefer, moving to a higher level of consciousness. Here is an excerpt:

“If we look more deeply into humanity’s ancient religions and spiritual traditions, we will find that underneath the many surface differences there are two core insights that most of them agree on. […] The first part of this truth is the realization that the ‘normal’ state of mind of most human beings contains a strong element of what we might call dysfunction or even madness. Certain teachings at the heart of Hinduism perhaps come closest to seeing the dysfunction as a form of collective mental illness. They call it maya, the veil of delusion. Raman Maharshi, one of the greatest Indian sages, bluntly states, ‘The mind is maya.’

Buddhism uses different terms. According to the Buddha, the human mind in its normal state generates dukkha, which can be translated as suffering, unsatisfactoriness [SIC], or just plain misery. He sees it as a characteristic of the human condition. […]

According to Christian teachings, the normal collective state of humanity is one of ‘original sin’. Sin is a word that has been greatly misunderstood and misinterpreted. Literally translated from the ancient Greek in which the New Testament was written, to sin means to miss the mark, as an archer who misses the target, so to sin means to miss the point of human existence. It means to live unskillfully, blindly, and thus to suffer and cause suffering. Again, the term, stripped of its baggage and cultural misinterpretations, points to the dysfunction in the human condition.”

In the past, I've always assumed that Christianity and the Bible were absolute truth or rubbish, but now I'm starting to wonder if a middle ground is possible.  To move forward with this belief, I will need to deny several basic premises of contemporary Christianity while recognizing that some aspects of my belief cannot be quantified or easily observed.

Let's assume that “God” is a character and not a supreme being, the New Testament is not timeless (but certainly revolutionary for its time), and Jesus was simply attempting to inspire others to achieve enlightenment.  With those three assumptions, Christianity and the Bible make a lot of sense to me, and I have to admit that Jesus was really on to something.  I may still not agree with every message in there, but it seems like he was certainly more enlightened than I am today.  This will require some thought.

Part 2 will be coming to a FB/blog post near you, but for now: dinner time.

Friday, May 7, 2010

Overcoming Obstacles

In my last post, I briefly discussed some of the goals I have set for myself. Well, today I identified two of the main obstacles that stand between me and achieving those goals: failure and shame. They're interrelated to a degree; let me explain.

I am not innately gifted in the world of finance or physical fitness. I haven't had a sustained and intentional workout/diet plan, and I find money management perplexing. Oftentimes, one misstep is the kiss of death to all of my efforts. I would let one small battle decide the war.

From today forward, I will accept failure for what it is - the cost of doing something great. In time, I hope to see these experiences as learning opportunities...but for now I'll settle with them not being indomitable influences in my life.

Shame is the other big obstacle. I am, quite literally, ashamed of my body. The feeling is so strong that it compels me to stay away from the gym. Shame should serve as a catalyst for self-improvement, not as a deterrent.  Now I move forward knowing that every pushup takes me one step closer to becoming someone I can be proud of.

Triumphs
  • I completed the final piece of my credit card application.  As soon as the credit union sends me my card, I'll be able to finally start building some credit history.
  • I updated my W-4 allowances after using the IRS's online calculator.  This should help me get a positive return during tax time next year.
Immediate Goals
  • I was sent an informational packet concerning my company's 401K information.  I need to read it and, if necessary, speak with the company-hired financial consultant about investment plans.
  • I need to find a suitable apartment for me and my new roommate, Jason.  The lease expires on June 30, so I need to have something lined up by the end of this month.
Final Thoughts

"Lack of activity destroys the good condition of every human being, while movement and methodical physical exercise save it and preserve it." ~Plato


Wednesday, May 5, 2010

The Night Shift

I have not had a presence online in some time.  This is true for a lot of reasons, but lately I've just been working my ass off.  I was going to insert something witty here, but I'm just dead to the world after a 13 hour shift.  However, I do want to give everyone the skinny on what's going on with me.

Scary thing of the month is that I may or may not have colon cancer.  It sounds like the docs really don't know what's going on, so I get to have them check out my GI and tell me what the hell is wrong.  That happens in just over seven days.

In other news, dating has been hit and miss.  It seems like I've attracted a lot of girls that I'm not that into, but I'm also attracted some girls that aren't into me.  My leading prospect was a med student at Wash U. who used to do figure skating.  She was a lot of fun when we got to hang out, but she's super unavailable.  We might give things another shot when she's less busy.

I'm also talking to an aspiring pharmacist that I seem to really click with.  We have pretty similar values on topics like family, religion, partying, etc.  The bonus is that she really likes politics and philosophy but isn't so knowledgeable on the topics that I will get destroyed in a discussion.  I digress.

My personal goals right now include:
  1. Get my finances in order, including 401K and a credit card.
  2. Start exercising regularly...Thanks Chi for some added inspiration.
  3. Playing violin regularly.  I've been super slacking on this one, but it's pretty low on the list right now.
  4. Take a Spanish class so that I can communicate with immigrant workers on the client site.
On a side note, I'm looking forward to another trip to Lollapalooza.  Gogol Bordello is playing, and I just know it's going to be a blast.  Overall, I'd say my outlook on life is pretty bright when I'm not burnt out from work.  I realized recently that finding a special someone is really important to my happiness, and I can use that as motivation to better myself. 

I would like to issue a challenge to all of my readers (lol, as if multiple people read this)...  Take a moment to identify your top three personal goals, and list one thing you are doing to achieve each one.  Sometimes, you just have to break down your goals into measurable bites. 

Final thoughts:
"I will apologize for everything but today.  Today, I give a shit!" - Kevin Kline in Life as a House